| My head is a mess. |
[Monday
November 3rd, 2008
1:27pm] |
Wow. What a couple of days.
A messy head is what I have.
I have now officially got into another relationship. And i feel great about it. However, me and my ex broke up about 5 months ago, and this is the first relationship I have gotten into since then. We want to stay friends,and she asked me to tell her when I had found someone else.
So yesterday I told her and it was hell. But after a long chat we seemed to have sorted it out. We would stay friends but I would avoid letting Vicky meet my new GF.
Then this morning I got a phone call from my new GF saying that she does not want me to be friends with Vicky. And that I should just cease all contact with her. And now i dont know what to do. I have always told myself that i would never get into a relationship where my partner dictated who I could and couldn't see. Because I would never do that myself. I told Amy that I would distance myself from Vicky for now to give our relationship a chance to grow. But ultimately I want her as a friend.
Is that the right thing for me to say?
My head is a mess.
Steve
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| little update |
[Tuesday
October 21st, 2008
10:08am] |
Well. Not much to say. I am still at uni, working away. Uni is good, my friends are not being complete idiots at the moment and my social life is good.
Ive been seeing this girl called Laura, but the problem is I see her once every 2 weeks. I like her but i'd prefer to see her more than that. I know she works full time and rediculous hours so i can understand. I'm just hoping their is some way we can see each other more.
I'm seeing her on Friday - off to watch the new Saw film, so that should be good. Anyways, I'll let you know how that goes.
Here is another annoying thing. Their is a girl from back home who I have likes since 6th form who I have recently got back in touch with. And she is amazing to say the least. And you wont believe how much we have in common. We've both admitted we like each other . Its just annoying because she is back home and I am in preston. And if i want to give this a go, i'll have to stop seeing Laura. I'm all confused :S
Anyway, It'll sort itself out.
Bye for now.
Steve.
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| Transission Magazine - The Narrow Bed |
[Thursday
October 9th, 2008
4:56pm] |
Hey everyone. This was an image produce in responce to an article in a magazine.
The Article was a short story about a man who has moved to barcalona. He enjoys the quietness of his new surrounding and is glad that he has replaced his old life in the Army with a new life of peace and serenity.
Steve
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[Wednesday
October 8th, 2008
2:27am] |
Well, whats new? Well. I met up with ym ex the other day. Things are so weird between us. When we broke up she said she still loved me but said she needed space. It was annoying. It was like she was trying to keep a hold over me so I wouldn't stray too far. Well, when I met up with her I told her that I am gonna date other people. She cried and i hate myself for that, but now it seems the hold has gone - and she knows it. So now maybe we can at least be friends.
Today was a bad day at uni. I rushed a piece of work yesterday because I had to hand it in today. When it came to talking about it to the class, all didnt go so well. It was a rubbish image and I was very aware of it. But still, the crit went bad and it put me in a naff mood for the rest of the day.
Ended up going to my SU (student Union) Pub and ran into a few friends. Which was good.
Also got a parcel off a freinds (who has recently moved to New Zealand) and that added to my 'cheered up' mood.
Going to Manchester at some point next week to visit my friend Baz. Not seen him in a while and we i said id pop down so we could catch up.
What else...hmm? Oh yeah. My nephew has got his first tooth!! Happy days. My sister is visiting me soon in Preston, so no doubt ill get see the little guy then :)
Anyways, it late and I have 500 words to write for tomorrow. So farewell net world. I shall sithy soon.
Steve
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[Tuesday
September 30th, 2008
3:07pm] |
It has been an insane 21 weeks since I last posted on here. And wow, alot has happened. So I will try and summ it all up as best as I can in as less words as possible.
Well forstly. Me and Vicky have broken up. After moving in together, it just wasnt working out so I moved out and back into uni accomodation. She still lives in Preston so I see her every once in a while.
I am now supervising at Wilkinsons. Its ace! I have cut my hours down at the moment because...well...I had to really. But yeah, the job is good. I get treated alot better now I am where i am :D
Also, I have started back at Uni. Already completed my first project, which the tutors really liked. So all is good their.
Even better... I have my first professional illustration comission. It has to be done by next thursday. It id for a book that is getting published. I am very very happy about that.
Plus, just got a call from my sister (who is an english teacher) and her friend is writing a book, and they want me to illustrate it. So That is another comission some time in the future :)
Now onto the personal life. Well, I am currently dating someone. Her name is Laura and she is amazing. The first time I met her she was wearing a Xena costume - so you know she has to be great. And yeah, we are meeting again this friday. So yeah, all is good.
Oh. And I have just got a brand new computer (which is called blaine) and I love it!! It means I have internet access all the time!!
Anyways. Work soon, so talk to you all soon
Steve
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[Tuesday
May 6th, 2008
10:17am] |
My Aunty passed away on wednesday. Only found out today. The funeral is this friday. My parents said that I dont have to come, but I want to. Its my dads older sister and i known he cared for her alot. I want to be there.
xxx
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| well |
[Tuesday
October 9th, 2007
2:39pm] |
I havn't posted on here (properly) in aaages. But I do so now in need of a little help.
I am posting some questionaires that I have made onto my journal. And if anyone has any spare time and wants to help out, than that would be the best thing ever.
I apologise for not cutting it...as I havn't been on here in forever and have completely forgot how to cut :(
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[Wednesday
August 8th, 2007
11:06am] |
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I am an idiot of epic proportions. I dont think I could be any stupider. Now to patch things up.
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[Sunday
July 15th, 2007
12:14pm] |
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I have lost my Fucking flat key!!! Im not even going to bother cutting out the foul language here. I am pissed off. I am skint as it is and now I have lost my flat and work keys. Which means I have to pay about 40 pounds to get them replaced. And I dont think I can do that till tomorrow because the accomodation receptionis closed... And that does mean I cannot get into my flat tonight. I dont have my phone with me. I dont have any money on me. Life is fucking great eh?
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[Thursday
July 5th, 2007
3:08pm] |
It feels like forever since I have been on here. Well, it is actually 5 weeks...but that still feels like an eternity.
Not sure why I post on here anymore. I rarely get to update, so when I do get to post I have lots to type....but not the energy to do it.
But here goes anyway.
The first thing. Vicky has moved back home now. She has only been gone 6 days....but its insane how much I am actually missing her. On her last night she was packing her things and cleaning her room. I knew she would be stressed on the last night. So all week I had planned something for her. I made her a candle lit romantic meal (sort of) It was late so we just had treacle sponge dessert. And I know she hates wine, so I filled some wine glasses up with chocolate Yazoo.
In the morning I gave her a leaving present. A book with loads of memories inside. Then she gave me a card and said that I could only open it when she has left.
About 20 minutes later I am sat alone in the kitchen and I open it. Wgen I read it I dont think I have ever been happier in my life. I just started crying.
It has been hard this past week. I have had Vicky on my mind the whole time. I am the only person int he flat, so I have no company what so ever. I am doing about 35 hours a week at the moment, plus I have art work to do over summer. And I am doing driving lessons. So I am exhausted 24/7. Plus I am going to the gym now every day ( my feeble attempt to put some weight on).
Work is a drag. It tires me out so much. It is boring and the people who work their are (generally) idiots.
I have to pay the second half of my rent tomorrow, which means I cant spend a penny for the whole of next week. Fun...
Ok...so I am looking over what I have typed so far and it is sound seriously negative. So lets throw some positives in.
Vicky is coming back next thursday for her graduation and is staying for a few days. I cant wait to see her. I get to meet her Dad (already met her momma) and I think we are off for a meal on the Friday. But Vicky said her Dad is quite shy and that I have to make an effort to talk to him lol
Having the entire flat to myself has its us sides. I have all the coubard space. Their is no one making a din on a night. Plus no one is eating my food on me (which had a tendancy to happen).
I do wish I had people to chat to over summer tho. Scott my cousin is coming up some time soon and I might ask Ric if he wants to. Not spoke to Baz in a while so I cant ask him. I would ask Gaz but he is usually working every day.
Lets just hope some of my flatmates move in soon :)
And on that note I shall leave. I need something to eat. Seeya!
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[Thursday
May 31st, 2007
12:34pm] |
Woo Hoo!! I have a day off from work! So while I do i think ill do a little update.
Finished my first year at uni. And I have passed the year. How well is another matter completely. But it doesn't reeeallly matter. These marks wont be carried over to next year...so all is good.
Not got my marks back from my essay on edwardian architecture.....yeah completely boring. But still, I wanna know how I did!!!
I have my first driving lesson today.Im not that nervous actually. I have put this off for too long so its about time I learn - hence the eagerness!! Wish me luck!!
I am off to the pub for lunch with Vicky and a few of her friends. Then tonight we are off out to Tokes ( Lava Ignite). Should be good.
And one last thing...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECI!!!!!!
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[Saturday
May 19th, 2007
2:28pm] |
A quick update.
I posted my provisional liscence form yesterday!! Yep, I feel it is about time I learned to drive.
Work tonight. Can never be bothered with it, but I need the money.
TV last night was ace. Peep Show, Darren Browns Trick or Treat and Wolfman!! Too cool!!
Right, thats all.
Laters
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[Monday
April 23rd, 2007
8:27pm] |
A little update on the world of steve.
1. I have a Job. I had a job interview at Wilko in Preston and I got the place. Rock on!! I have training tomorrow at 2, then I have to do a couple hours shift to get into the swing of things. I will be doing evening shifts (6pm till 10pm) so though I miss some good tv, the pay is a bit better (but only a bit)
2. Its my Birthday in a week, but today Laura of my course bought a birthday present. We get on ok, but I was in complete shock when she said she had got me something. And what did she get me>! The Grimmerie!! ME = Chuffed, because I have wanted it for ages!! Lauras ace! I have no idea how she knew I wanted it....although the fact that i have been working on Wicked prints in the print studio recently might have given her a clue :P
Not sure what I am doing for my Birthday yet. I know my parents are coming up the weekend before and we are off to the pub. I am not planning on going home for my birthday. The reason being that when I was back over easter, those people that I did try to get in contact with didn't get back to me. So much for friends :S I will be going out with Uni mates though, but that will be after they have all handed in their work.
3. Now the Rant. Today I had my crit. Basically they get about 5-7 of us in a room with our two lecturers and talk about our work. Well, I was up forst. The work I had done had taken me forever. And I was just in love with it. I couldn't wait to show everyone and was looking forward to what the tutors thought.
I started explaining what it was about and how I dod it. And then the tutors asked whet the other students thought of it. Well, Jen really liked it, and so did Ryan. But then it got to Craig. And shall I tell you some of the things he said? Ok I will
- "Its not really very aesthetically pleasing.
- "I look at it and dont really want to go any closer and look at it close up"
- "I have no idea why you have done it like that. It makes no sense.
He went on to tell Jen that she is on the wrong course and should be doing creative writing. Hes a student for christ sake. Yes, criticism is welcome. But he acts all high and might and things he can talk about our work as if its a bag of crap. Well, the tutors also didnt say anything nice and it left me feeling like crap.
Not impressed at all. Considering I was up till 2:30am last night trying to get it just right and looking the part.
Anyways. I have to run. Laters
PS. If you run into a guy with a mo hawk called craig and he is acting like the Jimi Hendrix of the Art world, then you have my pemission to thump him one in the face.
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[Sunday
April 8th, 2007
7:44pm] |
Just realised that on Monday I will be working all day. 10am till 4pm. Then I start my first day at Wilkinsons from 6pm till 10pm. The problem I have here is simple..
Its my Birthday!! What fun that will be!!!! :(
Runs off to sulk...but then cheered up by the Vicky and her guitar playing and melodic singing :)
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| fgdjfkh Easter |
[Sunday
April 8th, 2007
12:08pm] |
Easter. Not really a holiday I celebrate so the hyperness isn't their. Vicky got me 2 easter eggs, but I left them at Uni. Will gobble them up when I head back on tuesday. Nothing really planned for today. My cousin is coming round and I think i might go the cinema with him or go and play some pool. Not yet decided. Other than that, I have no plans. I could do some work, but that would just be a waste of good sunshine :D
Havea nice easter everyone! Enjoy!
Ste
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[Friday
April 6th, 2007
10:19pm] |
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Today has probabaly been the lasiest day I have had in a while. I woke up at about 10am and had breakfast. I went to Asda to get some top up from Asda. Then after texting multiple people to see if any of them wanted to meet up for a drink whole I am back in St Helens. I find outt hat all are working or going on holiday (which was the case for Gaz). So I doodled for a bit (nothing to do with my project work). Jen and me recorded our own versions of very popular songs on my phone. Then after the Saints/Wigan Game I just slept. I woke up about 15 minutes ago. I wont be able to sleep tonight and I am still bored senseless!! Help me!
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